Nostalgic

I must say that I have been quite busy with many things from small to big.I have recently entered to a whole new process of life,working. It was really unexpected to get an offer job especially to teach in my secondary school. I am honoured to serve my dear secondary school, SMK St Francis Convent for several months. Things didn't change much since I left on 2011. I remembered clearly the conversation I had with Sir Lim, my former Physic teacher, while looking after the kids in the assembly hall:

Sir: Do you still remember sitting down in the hall just like one of them?

Me: Yeah, sir. It was just two years ago.

Sir: Now you're standing here as a teacher, serving the school. 

That made me realize how time flies within two years. Getting the opportunity to be a part time teacher in my high school wasn't in my mind at all. But I am blessed to serve the school even as a temporary school teacher just like our school motto: to love and to serve.The teaching experience that I gained here is priceless and worthwhile. I thank God for that.

I remembered one of my buddies telling me this, "Do what you enjoy doing. That would help to destress yourself". Thanks for being an understanding friend. You know what, it really works. I really enjoy watching sunset. Watching sunset somehow reminded me how awesome and creative God is. For we know that it is God who paints the skies!
Spending quality time with my buddies is something to be cherished.No matter how busy a person can be,if you really care for someone, you will always find time for them. I cherished every single moments we had, the jokes, the laughters and the endless story telling time. It was worthwhile.

Knowing that everyone is leaving soon, I realized that our farewells are never enough. After one by one left, I am stucked here alone in the land below the wind, wishing I could be somewhere else. Sometimes, you are just used to doing things together and when things aren't the same, you start flashing back those moments. It didn't help you much but only feeling nostalgic even more. I really miss everyone.I imagined, what if Peter Pan's world really exists and we can just stay where we are and never have to grow up.  Only then we can have each other and never have to lose each other by sight. But,

 More than anything, more than anything,

My wish for you is that this life becomes all that you want it to,

Your dreams stay big, and your worries stay small,

You never need to carry more than you can hold,

And while you're out there getting where you're getting to,

I hope you know somebody loves you, and wants the same things too,

Yeah, this, is my wish.

That song basically summed up what I feel right now. How long shall we wait to see each other again? a month? two? four? or perhaps a year? I don't know but I hope you still stay the way you are. Don't change much because you're awesome just the way you are =]

Holding nothing back

Honestly speaking, I didn't strive my best for my AS examination. I regretted. On the day my results are released, I was feeling neutral. I wasn't so bothered what I will get because I know whatever that has done has already done. Nothing you can change at that moment. I paused and thought to myself, "Have I done my best?" I shrugged because I knew I didn't put my 100% effort. I did last minute study for most of my exams.

During Chemistry, a woman came and brought in a stack of papers all of the sudden. Those are the results that everyone was waiting for. Everyone was panicked. Some of them even went to toilet to calm themselves. I started to feel super nervous that time. I felt as if the room was colder and colder during that time. I started giggling. One by one was called alphabetically to get their results. Madam Emily announced those who got straight A's. The number of people getting either 3As or 4As increases. While some got really close to straight As but still everyone clapped. Some of them cried and tears for joy rolling down their soft cheeks. I can see that their efforts paid off with their excellence results.

As my name was called, I stood up and walked towards Madam Emily. She handed me my results and told me, "You can do better" I scanned through and saw a C for my Biology. o.o I was shocked. I went back to my seat and looked through. I was feeling quite happy for the other 2 subjects but still a C for Biology has ruined my results. I disliked Biology since secondary school and this is what I got.Nevertheless, I will still thank God for my results because without Him, I could have failed every subjects. It is by His loving Grace and Mercy that sustained  me through AS. I remembered those hard times when I was facing, I lost focus but God kept me back on track. Looking through my results again and again did not make myself feel any better but deep inside me I cried but I just couldn't express it out. Only God knows my efforts and time that I have put in. Still, I felt happy for my friends who got all As even though I was not a part of their success. Everything comes with an effort and sacrifices. But, I looked up to some of them who can managed their time well and yet get all As for their results.

When I reached home, I called him and told my results since he insisted to know. I was telling him that I am happy for what I get because I told him I got worst for my AS trials. Well, I was trying to not make it sounded bad because I don't want him to be worried. I am ashamed for my results. At some point, I feel like being alone and anti-social so that other people will need not talk to an ignorant person like me. I don't think I'm worthy enough to even be anyone's friend. After I hang up the phone, I cried but I remembered one advice. He told me, "Don't be sad, no time for you to cry, you need to get up and continue." I was comforted and I really thanked him for advising me. Sometimes, things like this happened for a reason. God didn't promise everyone for a smooth sailing life. He allows us to go through storms and thunders in order to make us stronger. In the process, God will mould you and prepare you for the next battlefield.

Most of my friends advised me not to feel down about what I get but rather to feel motivated to work harder for A2. I agreed with them but somehow that uneasy feeling come rushing back. I felt down and wanted to give up in my studies. Feeling no hope but I know my hope is in the Lord. I must learn to trust Him in all His ways and lean not on my own understanding. Sometimes in order to success, we must learn to fail. At times, we may feel like giving up but what really matter is perseverance. I learnt to accept failure and surrender it to God. Let God work in every individuals of your lives. You may not see the bigger picture now but for sure, God is doing something in your life. You just gotta pressed on a little longer.

Quote of the day:

" Never give up on something. You need to show yourself you're strong enough. "

Blessed week peeps :)

Say Hello!

HELLO KITTY has been my favourite toy since I was a little girl. Most of my friend that I know, young and old, love Hello Kitty very much. I don't know others but in my opinion, it gives me a feeling of warm maybe because of its adorable and lovely looking. I prefer Hello Kitty accessories like earrings, rings, hair ornament and watch. But recently, I bought a Hello Kitty accessories box which is kinda unique. Here are a few of the pictures:

As I was window shopping at one of the shops, I saw a pink Hello Kitty mini cupboard. It attracted my sight and I wanted to buy just by the first look of it. Well, anything that is nice to see are normally expensive and the price can go up to RM50++ My assumption was right. So, I just took a picture of it since I'm not buying it.

One day, I went to my neighbour's room and explored her stuff. I was quite surprised to find out that she actually has a whole collection of it. Soo AWESOME XD But I only took some pictures of her collection. 

I wish one day I could open a bakery shop and sell all the cute cupcakes which includes mini Hello Kitty cupcakes!! >.< I think it would look something like this picture below. I found this picture in one of the Hello Kitty images. If I'd ever see a bakery shop that sell this, I would buy all and not eat them. I will most likely preserve them. Hahahaha xD 

Aren't this look adorable?

Joy to the world :)

Joy to the world the Lord is come,
Let earth receive Her King,
Let every heart prepare Him room,
And heaven and nature sing,
And heaven and nature sing,
And heaven and heaven and nature sing.

This Christmas song has been in my mind. *singing it with the Alto tune*

Mini Chocolate cupcakes ~!

baked this 2 years ago :)

So it's almost the mid of December &&& Christmas is around the corner!!! XD *Christmas mood ON*
I remember when I was a little kid, I used to be excited about Christmas event. All the parties, food, games and most importantly getting Christmas gift are the highlights of my Christmas. I even believe the existence of Santa Claus. I was hoping every time when there is a Christmas tree,Santa Claus will put a present underneath.Now that you have already grown up, you know all of these are just myth. I feel that Christmas will be well celebrated at cold western countries that has snow. For instances, Italy, Europe, UK and others. This winter season somehow creates the atmosphere of Christmas which most people will build snowman and throw snow ball. But there is a better meaning of Christmas.

Question is, "What is Christmas all about?"

Most people in the world believe that Christmas is the day our Saviour, Lord Jesus is born. During the olden days, an angel named Gabrielle appeared to a virgin mother called Mary. She was told that she is going to conceive a baby that is from the Holy Spirit and shall call His name Jesus.

"Behold, the virgin shall be with child, and bear a Son, and they shall call His name Emmanuel," which is translated, "God be with us." -Matthew 1:23- (NKJ version)

After Jesus was born in Bethlehem, behold, three wise men from the East came to Jerusalem. They traveled and brought gifts along to search for the king. The star which they had seen in the East went before them, till it came and stood over where the young Child was. They rejoiced with with exceeding great joy. And when they saw the young Child with His mother, they fell down and worshiped Him. They presented gifts to Him: gold, frankincense and myrrh.

After all, Christmas is not just all about food, Santa Claus, shopping and gifts. It is rather giving hope to the homeless, less fortunate and lost people.They too can experience the true meaning of Christmas which bring  them love, joy and peace. CHRISTMAS is CHRIST :) Christ came down to give us life and life more abundantly. Before I end this post, I have a video to share:

Christmas flashmob! XD


Have a blessed Christmas and Happy New Year~

First blog~

 Finally, I have the time to write my post. Thanks Fred for helping me to sort out my blog issues!!  As I have promised, I will update my blog but not as consistent as you of course! :P

This month has been quite a hectic month for me. After AS exam, A2 class started. A lot of homework, assignment, etc. Aren't this month supposed to be a school holiday in Malaysia?!? After AS exam, I only get a "3-day-holiday". Well, I kinda miss my high school time. I miss those times when all the students just get to do whatever they like in classroom when there's no teacher and especially after exam.I miss those funny jokes, laughter, and annoying friends. They made my high school memorable. 

I had a list of "things to do" after exam while preparing for my AS exam. I was enthusiastic about it. But, guess what? I spent most of my time on FB. =.= I must start doing the things I listed !! I must!! Hahaha xD At least doing something more benefit than going online for countless hours, right? =.= Hopefully, I will be doing these for my coming sem break. Sad to say, only 2 weeks. I started my class early this year and I also have the least holiday :O ooohh...the energy that has drained.

Things I must do:

-play a song

-make video :D

-bake cupcakes

-drive around

etc...

How's my life in college?

It's been a quiet week for me. People who I mostly hang out with has left college to pursue their studies. I must say I feel kinda lonely. This made me feel like going back to high school again and never leave. I guess, I have to learn to be independent. I miss Bongsat !! :') I really miss hearing her craps. Those craps are really interesting and funny. Those are the little things that made my days not boring in college.

Things change for better? I really hope so. Wishing all you guys the BEST in your future career. A quote to end my blog:

" We can plan everything, but the Lord determines the step" 

have a blessed day (: